Monthly Archives: June 2014

You have no idea about my loss

I have written a lot about the loss of my wife 17 months ago.  I have grieved, I have struggled with loneliness, I have continued to struggle with insomnia.  But there is one subject I have not written about:  the … Continue reading

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Anxiety

Originally posted on Widow in Training:
I almost called this post fear, but that’s not what I’m feeling. Fear was when I thought I might lose Heck forever. It was heavy and dark and inescapable and when it grew in…

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To Be A Rock?

I seem to bounce from one heartache to another One tragedy leads to hope which leads back to sadness I am never wholly broken I am never wholly complete I am cursed to love too easily To empathize too much … Continue reading

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Another Father’s Day

This will be my second Father’s Day alone. I’m really not sure how I’m supposed to feel about it. My first didn’t even register – I spent the first year after losing my wife in a literal fog of grief. … Continue reading

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A Map of Home

Originally posted on Love, InshAllah:
1. Lately, I think in the shape of maps. Cartography is a relevant metaphor as my boundaries are bending yet again. My tongue wags in the direction of due East. I am revisiting old languages…

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When The Act of Cooking Makes Peace in Your Soul

I have always tolerated cooking since I was young.  I learned how to cook reasonably early and unusually perhaps for a young boy because the act of creating something was exciting and…..well my mother wasn’t always a good cook. As … Continue reading

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One Month Without You

Originally posted on thisyoungwidowslife:
My darling Sugar, Today marks one full month since you passed.  Each day does not get easier.  It feels like just yesterday we were in the hospital, fighting, hoping we could turn it around. It also…

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